Grumblings...

Been feeling off the past couple of weeks. Don't know why and I can't put my finger on it. Just feeling flat...

Maybe it's the end of June after 2 birthdays so close together I'm just drained?

I'm finding it hard to do anything but veg on the couch - which isn't like me at all. I normally plod around the house all day long - but I'm even tired of that! This week I just can't keep on top of it all. I feel like all I do is clean constantly. It's getting to the point  just hitting reset on the day.

I'm also feeling pretty unheard right now - I'm feeling frustrated that no matter how I ask or what I do I don't get the help I need or want. The biggest slap is when they tell me they're not listening because I'm yelling... doesn't matter if I even write my thoughts they still get ignored.
I did that yesterday... and I come home from work after being up since 4am to the letter and my thoughts completely ignored!

Nothing gets done... I'm treated like a maid - and honestly I get no respect at all for what I do.

I hate the comment "it's because we're women and mums"

You know what FUCK THAT comment. I am more than that. And I am sick of some ungrateful male not pulling their weight and sleeping in until 7:30 on a weekday and the house looking like I had left it when I went to bed early for work.

I am not your mother or your maid
I am your bloody wife and the mother of your children.  Start treating me more like a human and maybe one day you'll get more respect from me.

To earn respect you must show it....and as far as I'm concerned the little respect you do show me towards helping me out proves to me time and time again. You don't care how I feel - how I continuously feel.

Heaven forbid I was to end up sick... because you can't even cook ONE meal once a month! Once a month that's all I ask for a break.

I hope you read this and I hope you realise how bloody hurt you continually make me feel - but I guess that's ok... because even when I do try and tell you; you end up rolling your eyes at me. No wonder I can't even open up to my husband some days.

Don't be so reliant on someone always being there - because one day that person may just take their last tether and piss off for good.