June

Well today marks the 1st day of winter, our busiest month with 2 birthdays and of course my 1st day not logging into Facebook.
I have deactivated but I'll be honest and say not sure how long that will last. I'll probably reactivate around my sons birthday. I love seeing memories and looking back on things like that.

But a big reason I deactivated was really to connect back with friends I may of relied solely on for Facebook. As I said in my last blog it basically made me lazy.

I have no real intention of reaching out to anyone at the moment. It used to effect me really bad when you'd make that much effort to be in someone's life only for it never to reciprocated back to you. So I have learned to accept that most people will choose not to make the same effort I do.
Probably in the last year I've come to realise that I was the one trying to keep friendships/relationships going by messaging or keeping in the loop by liking all their stuff on Facebook. Once I stopped all that "communication" it's amazing how many people you truly realise are actually interested in your life.

Here's the thing - many people I guess would consider me to be stand-off ish. I've even been called a bitch and at one point told I exclude people (bit fucking rich that comment when the person who says it does exactly that!). Only reason I'm stand-off ish with certain people is because of the way they've treated me or my kids! No other reason. I choose who can hurt me and I choose whether I continue to let them hurt me.
And I chose that I no longer want to be hurt. So I cut people off. If this makes me a bitch or cold then I don't care.

So here's to day 1 of reconnecting with myself and not relying on Facebook to show my life.